The life of a woman who met and married an incarcerated narcissistic man—this book will take you on a journey of lies, cheating, and mental abuse as she finds her strength and courage to let go, move forward, and heal.

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Monday 5/10/2004

Upon arriving home from a very long day of work.  Finally, I had received a letter from him.  I had not heard from Curtis in over a week.  Not since the 1st and 2nd of this month.  

As I began to read the letter, the news was not good.  It was devastating, all I could think was “no, no, not again”.  Here we were just 13 days away from his release date. 

All I could think about at this moment was how we met, and how he romanced me with his words through letters and visits.

Curtis said, “it’s me again”.  I thought to myself, who?  Do I know you?  What was he talking about?  Okay, I’ve had enough now.  Let me write him back and tell him where he can go and how to get there as fast as he could. 

As the letters continued to flood my mailbox non-stop daily. Sweet words that any ears would love to hear. Smile.

I became intrigued and more interested in finding out what Curtis was all about.  I yearned to know more about him.

It was Father’s Day, June 2001, our first of many visits.  A week later, the proposal came along with thousands of lies.  He even got down on one knee.

Curtis and I was so happy and elated.  I was smiling all during the visit, as I was just on cloud nine. So, now a wedding to plan.   He would send me the application and all the information, I needed to fill it out and what was needed for the wedding.  

True enough it was to be a prison wedding, inside the visiting facility.  I was happy that we could deviate from the dress code a little.  As Curtis’s favorite color was powder blue, so the hunt was on for a dress in that color. 

Saturday 12/8/01 5:00 AM

Our Day is here                                     

The butterflies are buzzing around in my stomach.  Hands are shaking as I prepare for the drive to the prison to see my soon to be husband.  It’s raining today, so the roads will be wet, so I must leave extra early to allow myself time to get there. 

OMG.  It’s about to go down.  We’re getting married. Something that we both wanted and couldn’t wait for.  We both desired and deserved this.  We both were smiling like two movie stars.  Posing for the

cameras.  Curtis was looking more handsome as ever.  I just loved him so much. 

Or vows were simple.  Our wedding date was embedded in my heart and on his left shoulder.  “I Already Have Chelsey, 12-08-01”.

Now this was love.  Smile. Real true love.  Although we were apart this evening, I still felt very close to him. I yearned for him. For his touch, his kiss.  Yet I was still happy and still smiling all night alone, because spiritually he was with me, and making love to me on our special night.

Thursday 1/10/02 4:00 PM

The honeymoon was over before it began.  I’ve started this New Year as a newlywed in despair.  If this is a dream, I pray for someone to wake me up.  For I’m having the worst nightmare of my life.  As I received some terrible news, I’m in disbelief that what is happening is truly happening. 

There would be no consummation of our marriage anytime soon.  I received a letter from my new husband, stating that our request for first family visit, which would’ve been the only the first of many more to come, had been denied. 

I continued to visit with him twice a week.  Thursdays and Sundays only, as I worked on Saturdays.  This was a routine, that I looked forward to every week.  Spending time with my new husband was the joy of my life. 

Love, is this relationship true love?  I have asked myself this question often lately.  For I know what I’m feeling.  Yet is it love?  I’m beginning to have doubts. 

I’m in love with Curtis.  He’s so deeply embedded in my heart.  I fell so quickly, as in a blink of an eye.  Love struck me like a tidal wave.  I will embrace it and all that comes with it. 

Way before 5/23/04, there were so many red flags.  So many little coincidences that I didn’t question, because I was ‘so in love” with a man who claimed to love me.

I should have known from the way you got my pictures and letter, that there was no way that you could fall in love before we ever met, face to face.

He got me, hook, line, and sinker.

Let’s start with that picture you claimed to have accidently sent to me, in a letter of your ex. With her supposedly asking you if I was going to take care of you like she did by sending you $100 every month and packages etc.

  Yet I let it go, let it slide.

That letter explaining your time along with a falsified appeal document. 

And the cost of the wedding, $200? Be real, how he going to charge us $200 and another couple only $20.

Why would he get into more trouble and mess up not only our chances of ever having family visits, yet get our visits taken away for 1 year and then non-contact for 2 more years. And he’s supposedly getting released in 2003?  I get it now.  He never intended to be with me intimately.  He didn’t really love me.  He only loved what I could and would do for him.


Blinded by False Love: An Inmate’s Wife for Life
by Adynah Yah

book review by Amanda Hanson

“All I know is that I’m still here, still enduring this imprisonment, mentally, and physically.”

Chelsey is married to Curtis. He is an incarcerated inmate, but Chelsey believes she has found her Prince Charming. However, she soon realizes that she was wrong about him. One minute, he is the sweetest guy on the planet, and the next minute, he is taking out his frustrations on her. On top of that, they have not consummated their marriage because Curtis made sure to sabotage family visits by misbehaving. As a result, Chelsey’s family visits are denied. At this point, Chelsea realizes that Curtis is just using her for the money and that he does not love her as she does him. Throughout this journey, Chelsey must break free of Curtis’ hold over her before it is too late.

In her work, Yah tackles abusive relationships and how hard it is to get out of them. The author even draws a parallel between Curtis and Chelsey. Curtis is in prison, and he is not free. Meanwhile, Chelsea is living on the outside and has the freedom of her movements, but she cannot stay away from Curtis despite his abusive behavior. As Yah points out, she is trapped in this toxic relationship just like a prisoner. No matter how hard she tries to leave this relationship, her emotions will not let her. In reality, there is also a sharp contrast between her mind and her heart. Her reasoning tells her to leave Curtis, but her feelings say the complete opposite. Readers will likely appreciate this book because it exposes the signs of unhealthy relationships and their impact in the long run.

RECOMMENDED by the US Review

Pacific Book Review

Title: Blinded by False Love: An Inmate’s Wife for Life
Author: Adynah Yah
Publisher: XlibrisUS
ISBN: 978-1-6698-7941-1
Genre: Fiction
Pages: 370
Reviewed by: Allison Walker

Blinded by False Love: An Inmate’s Wife for Life, written by Adynah Yah, is a gripping
narrative about the tumultuous love life of a woman ensnared in the complex web of a
relationship marked by deceit and emotional manipulation. Told through the letters
between wife Chelsey and incarcerated husband Curtis, and Chelsey’s diary entries,
Blinded by False Love is a poignant exploration of the heart’s capacity to endure and
eventually triumph over the shackles of false affection. While the story is fiction, Yah’s

book is a convincing and believable exchange that will touch the heart of anyone who
has ever been held captive by an emotionally abusive partner.
The author’s unique storytelling, as told through the exchange of intimate letters
between Chelsey and her incarcerated husband Curtis, as well as her candid diary
entries, invites readers into the raw emotions and internal conflict Chelsey wages in her
heart and her mind. In these short diary entries and brief written correspondences, Yah
captures the insidious nature of narcissism as Curtis expertly wields his charm to hide
his true, manipulative intentions.
As the narrative progresses and Curtis’s true nature is slowly revealed to Chelsey, her
evolution from vulnerability to empowerment becomes the focus of the story. Yah
explores Chelsey’s struggle with her promise to be a loving wife until death do her part
and her inherent promise to herself, to demand to be treated fairly and with respect.
Chelsey seeks solace in her faith in God and finds support by joining a group of other
women married to incarcerated men. Readers witness her battles while being drawn to
her resilience.
Chelsey’s background, however, is somewhat sparse, leaving room for further
exploration into Chelsey’s character. Readers would find it easier to relate to Chelsey if
Yah developed her character more, delving deeper into the motivations behind her
yearning for love, her past romances, or her peripheral relationships with her children
and friends. By exploring these elements, readers could connect with Chelsey more and
empathize with her relationship with Curtis. Also, addressing these would broaden the
appeal of Blinded by False Love to a wider audience, since it may be difficult for anyone
who has not been caught in an emotionally abusive relationship to understand
Chelsey’s plight.
Blinded by False Love is a compelling and all-too-believable narrative that will resonate
with anyone who has been trapped in the complexities of love and betrayal intertwining.
Thankfully, it is also a resounding tale of the pursuit of self-restoration and healing.
Yah’s book is a testament to the resilience of the human heart.